The "I'm not doing so well" thread

Well,after lots of very careful assessment and in discussion with those around me, and zero back up from everybody else that discussion that have happened and they were involved in wearnt what I claim they are. I beleive we have found the problem and root cause of all of this.

It turns out its me. Its been me for a long time and if i continue with my current path, it will be me for ever more. Its good to know really, so i guess the next question is how to remove me.
Stick around, be a thorn in people's sides, embrace chaos... If others don't like it then fornicate them... Think I am unique I am me, there are many like me, but they are different, they are not Me...
 
Wishing all of you with troubles my best regards, retrobike helps us all, this fine community.

I have not worked since July 2019 when I cracked behind the wheel of a Pharmacy prescription delivery van. The pressure of this job and issues with my life finally broke the dam that was holding all my mental and physical health conditions at bay. Apparently I am on Autism Spectrum and have been anxious and depressed my entire life, diagnosed in fact in the early 1970's but for reasons known only to the medical profession, myself and my parents were not informed. Only found out when I got to see my medical notes when I was 50!

So for the last near 2.5 years I have been a non worker deemed eventually by the DWP as Limited Capacity for Work on grounds of my mental health. On top of which my relationship with my partner of 9 years broke up and the Pandemic.
All sh***

However I am coming back to the light with the aid of meds and the recent enjoyment I have discovered in voluntary work. I now crew a charity canal boat, recycle old bikes, conserve the natural environment and do community gardening.

On top of that I have here and the Facebook community and its all doing me good.

My only advice is do what you need to solve an issue before that issue causes a damaging overload. Keep putting it off and it will eventually bite.
Very brave to post this... I know how you feel been there several times. You will get through it as as you have found there is light at the end of the tunnel most often on the canal!!

Cheers James

Ps I volunteer on a charity canal boat occasionally.
 
Life is not without shit sometimes you can dodge it some days you can't all you can do is face it...
Begining of September I was one knot from being at the end of a rope I typed how I felt on fb and it was mainly the RB crew on my friends list that fired down on their keyboards and sent some much needed love and support this helped a lot knowing someone out there gave a dam about me. Since then I've made a few changes I gave up smoking cannabis after a 37yr addiction that was tough on its own, I've also got myself a full-time job as a Land rover mechanic now in my 5th week its hard going as I've not had a proper job for 5years (normally I'd be in bed by now totally shattered). Home life is not the best but at least I have Disco to keep me company when the wife goes to bed at 6pm and then gets up at 4am Married life has its challenges too

Thanks for sharing your stories and for reading mine I empathise with you all I won't tell you to stay strong because you can't sometimes but always be honest with yourself if you need a hand you need a hand don't be proud ask for it and accept it

Much love Clive & Disco IMG_20200301_135110.jpg
 
Happy tablets are kicking and they're helping, karen and daisy pushed me out on the bike tonight, didnt go far, do owt gnarly,go for a post ride pint but certainly to terms with some facts. Some were easier to swallow than others. Still looking for some changes but will let fate deal with that for now.

Work was better today, actually got to deliver some theory in a classroom, not over Microsoft teams and it was so nice to have discussions again, and they did ore work......I still like the old school processes but made relevant.

Happier day, one love and thanks for the support x
 
Simple rule of the thread is to just vent and put in black and white how you feel

I think there's a time and a place and that wasn't it.

It was the equivalent of standing up at a cremation and singing 'Disco Inferno'.
I took it as being meant in the spirit of presenting a more balanced portrait of our canine brothers and sisters. If you show nothing but the fluffy then someone has to show the spiky?
Torqueless, I'll assume you're more of a cat person then?
I'll take friends of any species I can get! Generally both cats and dogs are ok with me and I'm ok with them. What they (and we) are gonna be like when we haven't eaten for a week might be another story..
 
Rereading this thread to keep me grounded as more merde has just collided with the rotary air con. My ex partner of 9 years who was chronically ill and who I split from because my depression was making her worse is now dead, she topped herself. Now left with the frighteningly long list of what ifs, that might have changed this awful outcome, if I or she had acted sooner. You cannot change the past but jeez a time machine would be very useful right now.
God rest you Lisa, sleep in peace.
 
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