Ha...you don't know the half of it. It is a very very tough market and my business is only just over a year old, it is not easy I can assure you and sometimes the good old bad old days of being an employee and regular PAYE wages seems very attractive
Went self employed four years ago. It's just becoming reasonably profitable now. Hang in there - the benefits of being the master of your own time are worth it.
Going to PM you about wine...