kenaltobelli.....sound good advice,............well she wants me out asap now, it was going to be a bit longer so i could try and find a place near my new job, but it looks like i will have to give it up and stay where i can............i will push through this but boy i got a lot of things on my plate to sort out. I have been told i can visit him any time, but we will see how long that lasts. I don't feel anger, just want my son to be ok and recognise me when i turn up..